What is it?

I decided to stay at home instead of going to work for 3 days when Karu is gone India - hmm, not without feeling guilty. But I really enjoyed it. I also realized I would not want to do it everyday. Once in a while, a break is good. On one hand, I do not want the lifestyle of going to work everyday. On the other hand, I crave for crazy deadlines and feeling mentally exhausted from work. What is it that I want? Why this inertia to do stuff? I do like my job. I love it when I meet some deadline or fix a bug. But why doesn't it setup a positive feedback loop to do more. This is a total contradiction to human existence. We must do what makes me happy. The kind of crap I do, when I am not working is office not even close to how exciting my work is. I need to figure this out. I understand, end of the day, I want to keep my hands full, balancing both work and family. One without the other may not keep me occupied enough to be happy. How many ever times, I say out, I still don't know what causes this inertia. I hope to figure this out.

Spring is in the air

Oh its sooo - yes nice is the word I am looking for - not exactly beautiful. Its raining. But still the refreshing chill air - the bitter cold is behind us. Now I understand why Spring is so special. It lifts the spirit. I have to admit, after living in places with just Summer for all 12 months, I am beginning to like to seasons :) Well, it adds more drama to life - it makes you to feel stuck at home, it makes u feel gloomy and it also makes you feel so happy, like today.

Yesterday, my piano instructor taught me Major C scale and melodies set in C major scale. She said I should play with it and make my own melodies :D I got really excited. when I got home, I played and played still Karu begged me to stop :)

Now I am listening to old Tamil songs - simple songs set in C major scales. Illiayaraja can really do some magic with just the C scale - yes just the white keys - no complications and the music flows. My favourite is "Germmanyin senthemagala" Its so peppy!