Blink

You are happy one minute and don't feel so good the next minute. Now will your world fall apart after you don't feel so good depends on a lot of things. Makes you wonder, what you work for all you life? What relationship did you build all these years? Are people meant to be rational? Does offering a rational solution to ALL the problems really solve the problems? Or does it trivialize the problems? Do people really want to solve their problems? Or maybe they want to have some moderate amount of problems to keep the mind occupied? Can all the problems be outsourced or can money be thrown at it? Well, for the most part yes. But then there is core that people need to believe in; trust in that someone is going to stand by you, irrespective of how irrational you are. Not for long - maybe a couple of days once in three months. People who want to hear you blabbering about your irrational worries and problems in life - not because it will take longer to solve 3 days from now - but because they really want to relate to you. Do you want let someone affect you like that? Do you want let someone bother you by not coming home on time, by not remembering something thats important to you? Or do you always want to protect yourself from everyone - isn;t that easier? No expectations - whatesoever - but is it worth it? What does it feel like to come home to an empty house and cook alone and watch TV alone and go to bed alone? Is it all worth it? Why not let that person come closer a little bit - let them affect you a little bit - let that one tear off for them? Why not?

"Open issues" - my friend calls it1 i am in Marital Bliss.